Day 8

I started eating healthier and doing the '30 Day Shred' so I want to keep it up, I want to do it! I had been putting it off for almost 11 months, I want to lose the weight and I want to get into a little better shape before I get pregnant again. I'm on day 2 of the shred, and it is killing me. It's so hard to sit down, stand up and walk around...omg and is it ever hard to look after Caleb all day. My advice to any mom, do the workouts while your babies are little so you don't have to chase after them while you're sore.

The eating healthy thing isn't totally eating healthy, but I am trying to make more meals at home instead of eating out so that's a start. We usually eat out 3-4 times a week! It doesn't just affect your health, but it affects your wallet too. I wonder how much money we can save by not eating out?

I also want to get pregnant this month. Steven and I both really want another baby and we want them close in age. We are both the oldest of our siblings, and the next sibling in both our families is 3 years younger then us, and we aren't close. We want Caleb and Baby Murray to be close and have that sibling bond that we didn't have growing up. We are ready to welcome another child into our family and this feeling urge that I have for another baby just won't go away. I know that it's not easy to get pregnant most of the time and the statistics say that only 25% get pregnant on the first cycle, but I am going to try REALLY hard at this...plus it's fun to do the baby dance ;)



Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Wordpress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

Day 7

Caleb, he has the biggest impact on me. He has changed my life in so many ways. He is my everything. I love him.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Wordpress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

Day 6

Ok, I will tell you, but you can't laugh at me! My favorite super hero/fictional character is Sailor Moon, well actually all of the Sailor Scouts. I love anime, it's beautiful and amazing to me. I started watching Sailor Moon when I was 10 years old, it was on YTV after school. I loved it, instantly, all my friends were into it (only one of them still is) we would pretend we were the Sailor Scouts on recess breaks, after school and on weekends. We had clothes and books, our pencils and posters were all Sailor Moon. I don't know why I still love that show so much, because it was the art that brought me in. Maybe the story? It was after all about a princess and her prince, a love story. What girl doesn't like a good love story.



I'm still waiting on someone to buy my all the season and movies for me...hint hint ;)

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Wordpress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

Day 5

Ok so I know I just posted Day 4, but again I got busy and today is really Day 5 (really it should be Day 6 because I missed a day between Day 2 and 3...I think) so I decided to get back on track and do Day 5 as well. 

Ok so here's my picture of somewhere I've been. This was in August of this year and it was out first family vacation! We went to Banff for a few days, we go every year. This is Moraine Lake, its just down? beside?...it's really close to Lake Louise they are only like a 30 min drive form each other. The water is such a beautiful colour, these pictures don't show it very well, but you can see the mountains and the shear size and awesomeness of them alone is a good enough reason to go there. If we had the money to afford to live in a national park then we would move there in a heartbeat! I can't wait to take Caleb again next year when he is older, maybe he will enjoy it more then he did this year.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Wordpress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

Day 4

A bad habit I wish I didn't have, nail biting, I have been doing it for so long it feels like I don't have any control over it. I'm doing it right now. My nails are always uneven and really thin. I usually cut them so they at least look the same, but I don't seem to have the time and really cutting my nails is one of the last things on my list of things to do. 

Here's a picture of my uneven nails (don't mind my stubby little hands)

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Wordpress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

Day 3

This is me and my best friend Shelby, we have been best friends for almost 15 years! We don't hang out as much as we should or talk to each other a lot, but there is nothing I wouldn't do for her, she's pretty much my sister.

This is Kerry, she is awesome! We met in high school, she was dating one of my at the time boyfriends friends. We would hang out every single day. She had a car and could drive so that's all we did all night, good times. I really need to call her more.

These pictures are just over a year old, but I don't really get to hang out with my friends much anymore. I don't have a car and they live 20 minutes away. They could come out and see me, but Shelby has a job and is about to have a baby (any day now!) and Kerry has 2 kids and I'm pretty sure her life is even more hectic then mine.


Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Wordpress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

Day 2

The meaning behind my blog name, well it's pretty simple. My life is hectic, I know I only have one baby, so far, and I'm a SAHM, but my life is still really busy.

Once Caleb wakes up, usually around 7am the same time as Steven I bring him upstairs make him a bottle, change his diaper and then he goes off and plays, then I tidy up and get breakfast started and make sure the coffee is ready to brew. Once Steven gets out of the shower and gets dressed, after I have to go downstairs to show him where things are (that he put away!!) I catch get Caleb and put him in his chair so we can all eat breakfast. After Steven leaves for work it settles down until lunch and then its pretty much the same thing over again minus the having to show Steven where his stuff is lol. After Steven goes back to work and Caleb goes down for his afternoon nap, which sometimes doesn't happen, is when I get super busy. I clean the whole house top to bottom and do the laundry. Just as I am about to sit down and relax Caleb wakes up so we play until Steven gets home from work and then it's supper, playtime, bath, bottle and bed for Caleb. Then I finally get to relax and watch some TV...if I don't have parties to plan or things to sew for my family, right now I'm working on stockings for my mom and some crinkle toys for my best friends soon to be born baby!


That's the meaning behind my blog name, nothing special, but it suits my life.

I know today is supposed to be Day 3, but we went to Edmonton yesterday to get mine and Steven's birthday present...an apple TV!! Now we can stream netflix and pretty much everything on our MacBook onto the TV, how awesome is that?!

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Wordpress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

Day 1

There's my most recent picture...not one of my favorites but it's a picture. So now on to the 15 interesting facts about my life.

1. I was a cheerleader in high school, but I also played rugby.
2. I have never left Canada.
3. I have never seen an ocean, but I really want to.
4. I am addicted to poutine. It doesn't matter how full I am, if you offer me poutine I will gobble it up.
5. I drool in my sleep, and not a little, a LOT! I will wake up to a puddle on my pillow.
6. I get nose bleeds all the time. I have one right now lol
7. I am terrified of the dark, I always have a night light on...always
8. I hate seafood, I've tried lots of different kinds of fish, shrimp, lobster, crab, calamari...I HATE IT!
9. I will eat a hamburger, meatloaf, or meatballs, but I don't like ground beef when its loose like in hamburger helper.
10. My best friend and I had a girl band when we were little called All Spice. We mixed All Saints and the Spice Girls together. We sucked lol but we were only 10.
11. I watched the video for Oops!...I Did It Again a million times rewinding it and pausing it so I could learn the dance, and I did.
12. I used to sing along with Aqua. I would use my hairbrush as a microphone and my bed was my stage...and all my trolls were my fans.
13. I collected trolls, and I still have hundreds of them at my moms house in storage.
14. I went to my math 30 class drunk, good thing we had a sub that day and I sat at the back of the class.
15. I have the greatest family ever! Caleb is amazing and has changed my life and Steven, even though we fight and we had one of the worst weeks of our marriage, I love him more then words can say and I can't wait to grow old with him <3

I stole borrowed this idea from Letters From The Heart. I needed to do some thinking about who I am and this might just be what I need. It came along at the perfect time. I hope you have as much fun reading as I do writing.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Wordpress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

My Breakdown

Being a mom is hard, I mean really hard. I am a new mom, well not brand new Caleb is 10 months old and I won't lie I've had it pretty easy. Caleb started sleeping through the night at 2.5 months, he's never really cried unless he was hungry, he sleeps great, and adapts really well to change. We moved him from our bed to his crib without any hassle and now 2 weeks later he's in his own room and doing great! But just becasue I have an awesome kid doesn't mean I have it easy.

I gave up on breastfeeding after 3 days, I know it's pathetic I could have tried harder and I didn't, so now every time I read about other breastfeeding mamas and there success I feel like a piece of crap. When I feel like that I don't want to cook or clean, I don't even want to play with Caleb and that hurts. I love my son and I wish I could play with him but I just can't mentally get myself to want to. I want to keep the house clean and have supper ready for Steven when he gets home, but again I can't get myself to do it and it causes problems between us. I don't remember a day when we didn't get into fights or when we just cuddled on the couch to watch TV together. I feel like I know my families problems are becasue of me, my laziness and my attitude, if I could get off the couch and clean I would be happier. If I could crawl around on the floor chasing Caleb and play follow the leader, I would be happier. Just thinking about doing those things brings a smile to my face. I want to do those things, but I just can't. I know that sounds weird, but as much as I really want to do those things I can't.

Steven has told me that I need to go talk to someone, maybe they can help me work through my problems. I know it's the right thing to do, but I didn't want to admit that I couldn't handle my new life. I thought I would be the perfect wife and mom, keep the house clean and tidy, play with Caleb and always have supper ready when Steven got home, and maybe bake a few cookies and cakes in between. It was always my dream to be a stay at home mom, so it's not like this life was just thrown at me, I wanted it, I just didn't know that it wouldn't be what I dreamed of. Trying to get everything done is impossible! I applaud any one who can do it, your my hero. Anyway, I am going to see about getting in to see someone, I have some issues that I think if I got off my chest will help me to become a happier person. I don't expect to wake up one morning and be a Stepford wife, not that I want to be lol, I know it will take time and patience and I am finally ready to admit that I need this, not just for me, but for my family.